Up the Butt Gang

The Fat roll girls!

They all have a story to tell..
Gwen StormTrooper is a rescue from Tn.She is a small mastiff due to not being taken care of properly as she was growing. We call her Lady Fat roll and she is the lighter beige smaller dog. She is very timid but so affectionate.
Cleo is called Queen Fat Roll as she is well fed :). She is a rescue from KY who was used as a breeding dog until she stopped having puppies due to not being fed. She is the red dark neo who thinks she rules the place by sheer weight alone.
Mia is our latest rescue from GA and though we love mastiffs we fell in love with Mia..and she fits into the rest of the "up the butt" gang!! She is hilarious as she sits on her Butt not her back legs so her back paws end up around her head. Her nickname is countess fat Roll.
Then there is Sophie who is not a rescue but a neo we got last year. She is the Princess Fat Roll and is the most playful since she is only 10 months old. She loves stealing stuffed animals and running outside with them.
They are called Up the Butt Gang due to the fact they cannot be more than 2 feet from me... And if im not here whoever is either closest to the kitchen or closest to the bed or the couch. They travel in a mass.

life cycles

As i get older I notice more the cycles of life. how nothing stays the same. how life becomes a cycle of time and energy and events.
I see things i was once passionate about doing fading slowly into something else. but i also see how it fits into each other- i wouldnt be able to evolve into a new passion without having gone through the old one.
The problem is being patient with the transformation, being calm and centered whilst things swirl around, maintaining trust in that it is working for my benefit. I have enough experience with change to know that if i TRY to make something happen on my time frame, it usually crashes and burns but if i just Wait... observe.... take deep breaths...... and stay positive... it works out to where its suppose to be.

Suddenly... reality calls

you know how you are just going along in life... living, breathing, planning and all that. And then something happens that stops you in your tracks.
That happened to me today...through a series of things, I talked to a gal who has Stage 4 Cancer...and she needed to talk about something with me. And as im listening to her, trying to plan something she wanted to do, tears flowing as reality of her situation so clearly presented itself...i was overwhelmed with how fleeting and brief life is. I did not know this gal, but we cried on the phone as she planned to spend more time with her family.

I cant begin to explain the feelings and emotions that came over me... and all i could say is If you need me call me. Do you have people to talk to?

It truly was a sobering moment....

Having Come This Far

I've been through what my through was to be
I did what I could and couldn't
I was never sure how I would get there

I nourished an ardor for thresholds
for stepping stones and for ladders
I discovered detour and ditch

I swam in the high tides of greed
I built sandcastles to house my dreams
I survived the sunburns of love

No longer do I hunt for targets
I've climbed all the summits I need to
and I've eaten my share of lotus

Now I give praise and thanks
for what could not be avoided
and for every foolhardy choice

I cherish my wounds and their cures
and the sweet enervations of bliss
My book is an open life

I wave goodbye to the absolutes
and send my regards to infinity
I'd rather be blithe than correct

Until something transcendent turns up
I splash in my poetry puddle
and try to keep God amused.

~ James Broughton ~

for the word GOD at the end i would use Universe, Divine, or Self...

More about the HPV Vaccine...
It behooves us all with girls to really research ALL the info about this shot!!!
My Question is this: Since it is Men who carry the HPV and it is men who expose women to it through sex---WHY is it women are mandated/forced/compelled to get a controversial/dangerous/unstudied shot? Where the FUCK are the shots for men? Why arent THEY being held hostage and told what to do with THEIR bodies? Why arent their reproduction abilities put at risk? Why is it always women and children held in so little esteem that it means nothing to kill a few off in the name of science like unsuspecting test rats???? And note that its young girls who havent a voice yet in their own bodies AND minority women who rarely have a choice due to other issues, being forced into this great experiment without their permission!!!
So read... research and make an informed choice... DONT LIVE BY DEFAULT!!!!


Vaccines and Medical Experiments on Children, Minorities, Woman and Inmates (1845 - 2007)

More Gardasil Info

The State can violate womens bodies

Research people!!!



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SNL

Now this is funny!!!

Palin and Clinton from Saturday night live...

the meaning of quack

Interesting reading..
Origin of Quack

"""
Quackery
A physician of the time by the name of Paracelsus seems to be the first physician "lucky" enough to be labeled a quack. He made a salve that had a bit of mercury in it. He massaged it into a patient's syphilitic rash, and the rash went away. Other physicians of the time claimed that the rash did not go away but went further and deeper into the patient’s body. They called him a quack for using quacksalber.

Since there were no spelling rules or conventions established at this time in history, there were a variety of spellings for quacksalber, quecksilber and quacksalver being just two more. Some dictionaries tell us that a quack was someone who applied a salve (from quacksalver) and boasted (quacked) about it. This is the sort of thing that happens when high school dropouts write dictionaries. """


but i loved this paragraph...

""""Being called a quack was actually not all that bad in the sixteenth century (fifteen hundreds). It was much better than being called a witch. If a physician cured someone who was obviously supposed to die, he could be called a witch and then burned. If a physician was called in to cure a dying member of the archdiocese, a priest or a bishop, and failed to do so, he too could be called a witch and get himself lit up like a candle. Quacks lived longer than witches, because, as we all know, witches are extremely flammable."""""


just an interesting tidbit of info i found and wanted to share :)

the bucket list

i watched last night..i thought it was thought provoking and of course anything with morgan freeman in it HAS to be good. He is to me like the epitome of Suave, gentlemanly and kind. Given the chance I would marry him in a heartbeat!!!!
Men bonding here is a blog on this movie which i thought was good.
What would i have on my bucket list?

kindness revisited..

did you read the post kindness with the poem?
If so, did you REALLY read this:

Before you know kindness as the deepest thing inside,
you must know sorrow as the other deepest thing.
You must wake up with sorrow.
You must speak to it till your voice
catches the thread of all sorrows
and you see the size of the cloth.

I often find myself re-reading this part over and over.. its SOOO real. When going through Divorce and transformation of my own life, and sorrow was my companion, this feeling of sorrow being so deep was very palpable on a daily basis. Watching the man i loved turn alien into someone i did not even know, was the deepest sorrow imaginable. But almost 4 years later, i understand what kindness does for others and for myself far more than i ever did. Being kind when least expected to..like when a waiter is having a bad day, and obviously bad service,,instead of me leaving no tip or chastising them,, i leave a bigger tip and wish them well. When i see a woman with kids having a stressful time in the store, if i stop and smile -instead of frown or criticize like others--and say an encouraging word like.i KNOW what its like and believe me it gets better... i can show kindness in ways that mean a lot to others.
And what does it cost me?? nothing but less stress on me..if i respond in kindness and not in judging others actions, I relieve myself of stress and release oxytocin the hormone of love...which can never be a bad thing.

what kindness have you done today????

Relationships

I have friends going through hard times in marriage, in relationships and in finding the Right one. Of course me being the Mother Earth Nurturer of All who know me, they call to lament and to cry and to figure life out. What they try to do is make life Easy without actually having to live it. Without going through the messy parts, the thought provoking parts, the deeply sorrowful parts. And yet like birth, one HAS to walk this path.
What is a relationship? to me, its not someone to make me happy or to fulfill my life. I create my own happiness and fulfillment by pursuing a life of purpose(see previous post on this). I am happy cause i do what i am most passionate about. I am fulfilled because i search out those passionate things. I have kids, dogs, cats, a gang of ducks in my pond, babies to catch, homeschoolers to help, amazing oils to smell, spiritual coaching to do for those in transformations of life, and cooking and writing and enjoying life-- so i know im fulfilled!!
To these friends whose partners are making them unhappy--is this the partners fault or theirs? Why when someone is unhappy in their marriages do they have affairs and NOT fix the issues?? Why does this seem to be the answer?? Why would betraying someone EVER be the answer to anyones pain??
I know i am working on 2 tangents here.. :) but i am making sense to me :) Relationships should be complementary, emotional uplifting, physically safe, mentally challenging and spiritually soothing.... 2 people who are happy for themselves can only offer a truly mature relationship. 2 people who feel safe to talk about anything--sex,past hurts, future plans, daily challenges and when things get tough==TALKING instead of betraying. It IS tough to discuss issues with someone and much easier to go outside to someone else one thinks understands..but really if a person is willing to take the place of a spouse are they trustworthy??? Can one really be a part of a betrayal and still be helpful??
I think not. And i think not based on what i have seen with others. And i think not based on my goddess wisdom and knowing betrayal of someones trust is so easily done and never ok and hard to fix.

So where is this going... hmmmmm,.... maybe just the ramblings of a goddess on the love antics of mortals. And hoping someday they all find Love and Joy in another.

living a life of purpose

So... lots of people ask me what this means. And so as i drink my espresso, the Goddess brought some thoughts to me.
To me living a life of purpose is NOT living life by default.
You know, just going along with society, doing what needs to be done, never challenging what you are doing, never pursuing a path that looks untrodden or unexplored, never wanting to strike out without approval of others...fearing the unknown to the point of never thinking an original thought.
My life has always been unusual...and what is strange is i dont set out to be that way, its just that way. When i think of what i want to do, i often explore ALL options known to womankind, read dozens of books, talk to people, search the internet and come up with my own path. I LIKE not running with the crowd so i know i subconsciously search for the crowdless way.
I also know i like doing my own thing... i want to be happy in my careers--and i AM. I want to look back and see my choices and know they were the right ones...and i DO. I want to look forward to new adventures that will continue to amaze me and challenge me and I CAN.

So living life with purpose is all of those things... Passion, adventure, unusual, fulfilling,strange, humorous,unknown and satisfying. And maybe when i least expect it, finding someone who "gets"me on all levels, who enjoys my quirky life, my unusual perspective of living and who wants to be a intimate and permanent part of my life.

And when i am leaving this life to journey to a new life that i have planned, I will KNOW i did all i wanted here. Isnt that living a life of purpose????

kindness

Kindness

Before you know what kindness really is
you must lose things,
feel the future dissolve in a moment
like salt in a weakened broth.
What you held in your hand,
what you counted and carefully saved,
all this must go so you know
how desolate the landscape can be
between the regions of kindness.
How you ride and ride
thinking the bus will never stop,
the passengers eating maize and chicken
will stare out the window forever.

Before you learn the tender gravity of kindness,
you must travel where the Indian in a white poncho
lies dead by the side of the road.
You must see how this could be you,
how he too was someone
who journeyed through the night with plans
and the simple breath that kept him alive.

Before you know kindness as the deepest thing inside,
you must know sorrow as the other deepest thing.
You must wake up with sorrow.
You must speak to it till your voice
catches the thread of all sorrows
and you see the size of the cloth.

Then it is only kindness that makes sense anymore,
only kindness that ties your shoes
and sends you out into the day to mail letters and purchase bread,
only kindness that raises its head
from the crowd of the world to say
it is I you have been looking for,
and then goes with you every where
like a shadow or a friend.

~ Naomi Shihab Nye ~